Monday, May 05, 2008

Another Spring

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For Tante Paula…
I know you will never read these words of mine, but I still want to say this. I love you very, very much. Please fight, for at least a few more years…


immutable things
have unknowingly moved to the horizons
forever unreachable
or
forever lost

winter lingers a bit more in your eyes
with every passing February
an alien
has seized you
an incongruous stranger
has punished you to bear
his inelegant flesh
this face that you see in the mirror
could not possibly be yours
no, you will
forever be eighteen
only to others
not to you
this absurd thing they call old age
or death
happens

or does it?

luckily
spring returns every year
wild crocuses smear the hills
in yellow and mauve
birds whistle their sweetness
into the sweet air
yet strangely not just for you
anymore

doubt
like a forgotten icicle
will never again melt
still
you find a smile
as you take your grandson’s hand
and
somehow puzzled at your
acquired clumsiness
try to match his bounciful gait
on the path to the playground.

12 comments:

Sarah Hina said...

What a lovely, heartfelt poem, Vesper. I really loved the winter/spring imagery and felt the truth behind your bittersweet insights. The ending pierced my heart.

strugglingwriter said...

Beautiful.

Nice picture of the crocuses, by the way. I love them and planted a few a couple years ago. The thing about them, though, is they arrive early and only last a little while. While they are here, though, they make things a bit more beautiful.

Absolute Vanilla (& Atyllah) said...

What a beautiful poem, Vesper, what rich and wonderful imagery. I think we can hold to the fact that spring always comes - even if the form is different from what we may be conditioned to expect. :-)
Hugs.

Lisa said...

This actually made me cry.

Vesper said...

Thank you, Sarah. Such is life, bittersweet, especially when one slows down and reflects upon it...

Thank you, Paul.
I've never had any succes with bulbs because of the squirrels.

Vanilla, thank you. Yes, we have to hold on to that thought...
xoxoxo

Lisa, I'm sorry and I'm glad. Thank you for a great compliment.

Bernita said...

So beautiful...

Emperor Ropi said...

I like winter better.

Aine said...

Your words express these ideas/feelings so well! Aging is so strange and such a disembodying experience. I have such respect and admiration for those who do it gracefully.

Ello said...

Vesper - doubt like a forgotten icicle - that one really spoke to me. I love it. You have such a way with words.

Vesper said...

Thank you, Bernita.

Ropi, I think that in nature, like in life, each season has its own beauty and meaning.

Thank you, Aine, and you're right.

Ello, you're so kind. Thank you!

Hotwire said...

no, you will
forever be eighteen
only to others

that is a great line!!

ChrisEldin said...

This made me cry also. I'm only seeing the melancholy, though I know it's more than that.
I just look at my children and want to freeze this age. My age too.
Very beautiful poem.