Thursday, January 17, 2008
The Resolution, the Sin of Impatience, and the Aries
If impatience were a sin, then I would be a big time sinner.
When I want something, I usually want it NOW. It’s extremely difficult for me to wait for anything. I’m not talking about (buying) material things, although this could sometimes apply to certain books or films. I’m talking about doing things, or, worse, seeing them finished. I’ve been working on some discipline for the last few years (or maybe age has made me wiser?!?! – uh-uh, I don’t think so!)
Although I do not believe in astrology, there is an aspect of it that fascinates me and that is how well the descriptions for the various signs suit the people I know, including myself. So, can I blame this impatience on being an Aries? Maybe. Apparently, the prayer of an Aries sounds something like this: “Oh, God, please give me patience because I really need it. And I need it NOW!”
Now what about the resolution? Normally, I couldn’t and wouldn’t even talk about this, let alone write about it, for fear of jinxing it. I very seldom talk about my projects while I’m planning them or working on them. However, this time I thought that, by putting it in writing, it would act as a promise, that it would be binding, that I couldn’t hide from it, or even procrastinate.
Therefore, yes, here it is. I have decided to start writing a novel.
This year I will try to develop a story I love and find very interesting, one I’ve been living in on and off for about two and a half years now. I was trying to squeeze it into a short story, terrified by the incredibly low word count accepted by magazines, but it just doesn’t fit and I think that I have more to say on the topic.
So this is my Resolution for this year.
Also, here’s where my dreaded impatience comes to hard trial. Writing a novel, I believe, represents travelling on a long and tortuous way. It represents very hard work and lots of patience. I’ve been spending more than three years training myself to write short stories, and now I have to put all this knowledge somewhere on a back burner and start thinking “novel”, start remembering what I’ve been reading about that and start studying new things. First of all, start writing. (That I have started!) But, after all, I don’t mind it. I love a challenge. I’m an Aries.